“So, when are you going to have a baby?”—oh how I dread
hearing those words. I love children and want to have a house full of them but
you see, for us, the road to get there is going to be bumpy, hilly, and may
sometimes have a detour or two. We were told recently that our chances of
having our own biological children are SLIM TO NONE---not exactly the news you
want to hear EVER!!! You see, Rob and I had BIG plans to have three to four children
and even have their names picked out. We want to hear the pitter patter of
little feet, the words “mommy and daddy”, and also deal with the spit ups,
diaper blow ups, and hissy fits. But now, we just have to take a detour to get there.
Grant it I was pretty darn upset when we got the news but Rob always makes my
gloomy, gray skies turn into the brightest, sunny day. We cried together,
laughed together, and he held me forever. Being that I am a girl, the emotional roller coaster I have been on the past year has been TORTURE!!! Having to go to the
doctor’s office and see pregnant women or even see my friends rejoicing online
about their pregnancies always made me envious an angry----I really wanted to
be happy for them but I always said “why can’t that be me”. Every step of the
way though, my husband has been by my side. He told me that no matter what we
would have our family—he also said “you know you always get what you want” :O)—I
will take that as a positive instead of a negative statement honey!!!!
Rob and I talk to each other about everything;
there are NO secrets in our household and we love it like that. I tell Rob all
kinds of things and I am sure at times he probably wishes I would have kept it
to myself. Through the past year we have talked about “options” a lot. Do we
want to take the “pill” to jump-start pregnancy, do we want to have IVF, or do we
want to adopt. For those of you who don’t know, I have always wanted to adopt children
since I was a small child…might be because I have two pretty awesome cousins
who were adopted!!! Luckily, my husband feels the same way. We decided this
month, October 2013, to begin the process of adoption. We have received packets
of information from three agencies thus far and have chosen to go through SCDSS
Heartfelt Calling.
On October 2, we received the application in the
mail. Of course immediately we started filling it out. Rob has an assignment on
October 3, to measure our windows and then on October 4, we prayed over our
application and placed it in the mail. We are not going through this journey alone,
we KNOW God is with us. We want God to choose our children, not us. We
understand the process can take at least 6 months or even years to complete but
we are ready. We have a HUGE family and friend support system who are praying
for us each step of the way.
The one request we would like to ask of you is to
pray with us. We always heard “it takes a village to raise a child” and we feel
this will be the truth when it comes to our children. Thank you for partnering
with us on this next step in our life. We will be documenting everything as we
go.
Psalm
37:4 Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the
desires of your heart.
